Prep Day

Ahhhh, yes, the glorious consumption of the so-called "cherry" flavor TriLyte preparation for my colonoscopy. It's "cherry" only insomuch as it claims to be on the flavor packet. Perhaps "cherry" in the pharmaceutical world really means "feet" because that's pretty much what it tastes like. I'm quite sure right now there's as much sodium running through my intestines as there is in the Atlantic Ocean, and since it's made its way through the plumbing on the other end, it's probably headed back there right now.

Today was a pretty relaxed day, but productive. Teresa came over and helped clean my bedroom and make it a sanctuary for when I come home from the hospital. Kirsty got here and did some good energy work on me (in between bouts of running to the bathroom). Mom and Dad are helping out with some little jobs around the house and helping with Benjamin, Phil took B out for a walk, Mal and Sharon and Sophia came over for a visit, Kirst cooked dinner. So much support in so many ways. I've been reflecting on that alot today.

I think for me, part of this process is letting the love in. I KNOW it is. It's something I've always had a hard time doing. The universe always presents ways for us to figure this kind of stuff out. Personally, I would've chosen a different way than cancer, but that's what's been handed to me. So, universe, I think I can say with confidence now: I GET IT! It's ALL about the love. And it's always right at our fingertips if we just reach for it. So much love. So many wonderful people. It takes a village to get someone through cancer just as much as it takes a village to raise a child. The key is to let it happen. To let people help. And know that I get to pay it forward in the future when I'm an ornery old woman with graying red hair running after my grandchildren. I KNOW that will be my future. I KNOW that I'll be around for it. And it's because of all you fine folks (and the Lord, of course) and the love and support that you are all dishing out. Much love and thanks right back at ya!

I'm off to bed. Hopefully it'll be a restful sleep since I won't be able to take the meds I've been taking to help me sleep. And right now Kirst is working on Phil, so I'm hoping he'll sleep, too. As for Benjamin, he's fast asleep in dreamland.

Love to all,
Sandy